Suddenly, I feel like a student again. I don’t know how to parse the world, I don’t know what it wants from me, I don’t know how to react to it. I don’t know how it’s socially acceptable to react to it anymore.
I can learn how to cook, how to clean, I can learn how to iron. I have the mental faculties and physical capabilities to acquire these abilities, and if I can not do them well, then I will one day at least perform them adequately. That should not be beyond me.
But there is no skill that I can learn that will put another human being in this flat with me. That is terrifying.
Rao Dao Zao 